I did enjoy looking after the animals at Kieran and Kourtney’s last weekend. I got to catch up on Our Flag Means Death on Max, then met a friend for dinner in Davis. I got there early so went for a walk in the neighborhood and saw some sweet little cottages lit up with holiday lights.
haven’t posted for a week. I’ve been busy but haven’t had anything especially interesting to say as most of the time I’ve been either working or writing. I’ve found it works best for me if I write first thing in the morning, so I’ve been getting up at 5 to write. There has been so much going on at work trying to get up to speed that by the time I get home between 6 and 6:30, I only have energy for dinner and a bit of time with mom before I’m ready for bed.
I’m getting out for walks in the morning and at midday which helps keep me balanced, but it has been tough readjusting to being back in a busy office working 8-hour days. One of the biggest challenges has been letting go of thinking about work at the end of the day. The hamster wheel of ‘I’ve got to do this and that, and what about this other thing’ has woken me from sleep a few times. Even though I don’t have a long term commitment to the organization, I still want to feel like I’m doing a good job and for people to be happy with me.
I see how little extra energy I have the end of the day and think that I need to find a way of earning money that isn’t so draining for me-maybe not being in an office or for so much of the day or having more time to spend on things, not rushing so much. I know it’s only been 2 weeks, but I’m much more aware of how my body and mind are responding. I’m working on my breathing and letting go of trying to do too much.
This feels so blah and boring, especially without any pictures, so I included a few I took on a walk near work. Next week should be better, I’ll get some time in nature.
